The Retrocession

I don’t know whatever I am doing now is right or not. I should stop letting my heart lead my brains. I know I am full of emotions but I should stop being so because sometimes this leads to disastrous effects. And I truthfully do not know or understand what I truly want or yearn for. I am at such a loss now. Damn. Perhaps it is better being a solitary animal. Or turn gay. ARGH.

媽的，幹！ㄍㄢˋ　ㄍㄢˋ　ㄍㄢˋ If you feel that you can’t understand this, go ask Yu Hung or Yi Chieh. Or consult a Chinese dictionary, if you know how to use it effectively.

这个世界本身是公平的。有些人ㄊㄧㄢ　ㄗ　ㄘㄨㄥ　一ㄥˇ，但是基于种种原因，它们有些性格ㄍㄤ　ㄅㄧˋ　ㄗˋ　ㄩㄥˋ，有些行为显得ㄎㄨㄤˊ　ㄨㄤˋ　ㄗˋ　ㄉㄚˋ，有些对世界ㄇㄛˋ　ㄅㄨˋ　ㄍㄨㄢ　ㄒㄧㄣ，有些不懂得什么叫ㄍㄢˇ　ㄣ，还有些人根本就是ㄨㄟˊ　ㄨㄛˇ　ㄉㄨˊ　ㄗㄨㄣ。The reason I say that the world is fair, is that 他们有一个优点，同时就会生出一个缺点。是利是弊，随便自己去想，反正总而言之在我们周围就是有这样的事情一而再，再而三的发生。

ㄐㄧㄣ　ㄊㄧㄢ　ㄗㄞˋ　ㄈㄤˊ　ㄐㄧㄢ　ㄌㄧˇ　ㄈㄚ　ㄕㄥ　ㄌㄜ˙　一　ㄉㄧㄢ　ㄅㄨˋ　ㄩˊ　ㄎㄨㄞˋ。或者应该说，是沉积许久的不满登时爆发吧。可能ㄊㄚ对ㄨㄛˇ也有这种想法吧，但是这不重要。在这个世界上，like it or not，ㄖㄣˊ　ㄕˋ　ㄧㄡˇ　ㄏㄨˋ　ㄒㄧㄤ　ㄌㄧˋ　ㄩㄥˋ　ㄉㄜ˙　ㄐㄧㄚˋ　ㄓˊ　ㄌㄜ˙。我跟你ㄐㄧㄝˋ，你跟我ㄐㄧㄝˋ，ㄐㄧㄝˋ来ㄐㄧㄝˋ去，礼尚往来，无可厚非。但是ㄋㄧˇ趁ㄨㄛˇ不在的时候ㄅㄨˋ　ㄐㄧㄥ　ㄩㄣˊ　ㄒㄩˇ就把ㄨㄛˇ　ㄉㄜ˙　ㄉㄨㄥ　ㄒㄧ˙　ㄐㄧㄝˋ给别人，这是谁的ㄘㄨㄛˋ呢？答案是显而易见的。

算了，其实也没什么大惊小怪的，like I always say, the One-Child-Policy is screwed. 即便你ㄅㄨˋ　ㄔㄨ　ㄕㄥ　ㄩˊ　ㄓㄨㄥ　ㄍㄨㄛˊ，ㄏㄞˊ　ㄕˋ　One Child啊。好自为之吧。子曰：“己不所欲，勿施于人。”ㄗㄞˋ　ㄆㄧ　ㄆㄧㄥˊ　ㄅㄧㄝˊ　ㄖㄣˊ　ㄓ　ㄑㄧㄢˊ，先用ㄓㄠˋ　ㄧㄠ　ㄐㄧㄥˋ看看自己吧。

Sian ah exam too much stress le lah. Shall post more weird map pictures:

1. Madman with China Map Tattoo

He is trying to show the route the Communists had went through during the Long March on his back. OUCH.

2. Proposed Division of Post-war Japan

It was proposed that Japan is to split among the four Yalta Powers like what happened to Germany and Austria. According to this map, Hokkaido and NE Honshu will be occupised by the Soviets, the Central along with the Ryukyu islands will belong to the US, Kyushu and Chukoku in the SE will be British, while China will occupy Shikoku. Tokyo ill be split amongst the 4 allies, just like Berlin, while Osaka will be divided between US and China only.

This proposal was abandoned in the end due to rising Soviet influence and threat. Luckily this proposal was not put into practice or else the guys would not get to see those videos. Yes. THOSE VIDEOS.

3. Kiwi Power

See for yourself, decipher yourself

4. What's that gassy drink called?

5. MY FAVORITE: HOW RONALD REAGAN VIEWS THE WORLD.

Taiwan: We will recover the Mainland

Anyway it is fun to study in the coffee shops. Irony it sounds, but it's damn conducive.

Tuesday is always a long day for me. Late curfew nights. Quite tiring lah. So shall post some random pictures I have in my computer:

1. Legendary Bishan Gay

This is the famous Bishan Gay. this is how he looks like

OKay lah, he looks quite cute lah huh.

2. Pak Lah (aka Abdullah).

Not the NJ one, but the Malaysian one. Caught Sleeping during UMNO meeting tsktsk :

3. Jolin!!!!!

Yay new album. I was at Popular, about to the buy the new Boys Like Girls album. Then I saw Jolin Tsai on the shelf. Sorry Paul. I didn't buy that album in the end.

4. Chen Shui-bian

There is this website called uncyclopedia. The damn guai-lan version of wikipedia.

5. Hakka Movies

Oh I was trying to pick up Hakka during the holidays last year so watched a few Hakka movies. This particular movie is about the Taiwanese Hakkas forming their own volunteer corps to fight the Japanese when China cede them to Japan without their consent in 1895. btw his face look like Zhung How, haha.

6. Sora Aoi and Yuma Asami

HAHAHAHA the (in)famous picture posted on Facebook! All Boys' School kids can unite here le, haha.

7. Some retard politician.

His famous quote is STUPID STUPID STUPID. Go search it on Youtube. He said that in Parliament.

8. Racist?

Hmm. Is this wikipedia excerpt considered racist?

9. Teletubbies

I always thought that Teletubbies were dead stupid. With that Sun baby that screams and shrieks whenever he rises and sets. Damn annoying.

10. MIGHTY MR LOW.

See for yourselves!!!!!

Malaysia 黄明志 strikes again! This time round, Tenaga Nasional Berhad (National Energy Limited) in Muar kena tekan by him because of the town-wide power shutdown and he was in the midst of composing his songs! Damn vulgar towards the end, 不喜勿近:

OMG I am so addicted to Cyndi Wang’s songs, I just can’t stop listening to the entire 爱你 album!!!! OMG OMG OMG What’s going on now!

The new bus-stop signage is damn cool. The color is damn nice. Wonder why the government chooses to put them in the East first. Maybe because we guys are more supportive of them, heh.

Pearlyn if you see this then we can confirm le!!! =) WE CAN READY GET SET GO LIAOS, can’t wait to see you-know-who!!!

明知相思无用处, 无法来解相思苦，问君知否此时情，只意梦魂别处往，无言可诉一方心，唯祝好梦皆无数。YAY. I LOVE TAIWAN. xoxo whatevers.

Whoa that sounds a bit tyrannical. But I don’t care. From today onwards I shall boycott Lot One McDonald’s, although I know that this would not affect them, but just to show my animosity or angst or disgust or disdain or whatever-negative-connotations towards them. I shall defy anyone/anything that causes things to not go the way I want.

Today go Curry Wok, no money, ATM also spoil, damn cui.

No mood to write anything liaos, damn pissed.

Happy Birthday Zikai, please reopen your blog k.

Damn sian studying through the middle of the night. Yet I am still so alive and kicking at night.

Watchedd this serial drama called 雾锁南洋. Damn old film lah, like early 1980s I think. My parents watched the show in China before, but I haven’t. It’s damn nice lah, showing how our forefathers fought and strived to make this place a better one for you and me. The Chinese saying goes, 前人种树，后人乘凉, meaning our forefathers planted the trees while we took shade under these trees.

Therre 4 parts to the entire show. The first two parts were about Singaporean history before and during the Japanese occupation, while the latter two are about our strive for independence and the challenges we faced. It was rumored that the latter two were filmed because the government told them to, in view of the 25th National Day. Who knows.

Then the theme song also damn nice. Today is a hazy day anyway, so these lyrics fits:

人世间曾有多少离合悲欢

生命中曾有几许无奈沧桑

雾起在南方 雾落在南方

朝阳可曾藏心坎

 

过去的记忆你是否已经遗忘

祖先的流离可曾使你惆怅

雾起在南方 雾落在南方

重重迷雾锁南洋

 

望远方天水茫茫

浓雾中何处是家乡

向远方冲过险滩

浓雾散见我新家乡

 

过去的记忆世代不可以遗忘

祖先的流离使我生命更坚强

雾起在南方 雾落在南方

重重迷雾锁南洋

 

带希望努力垦荒 带理想开拓新家乡

用希望换取希望 用理想创造新理想

 

充满信心向前望 不必迷惘

黑暗到了尽头 就会出现曙光

雾起在南方 雾落在南方

Have been breaking too many hearts. People, just stay away from me. I think I am getting weirder and weirder. I have been getting weirder and weirder dreams, and I think I am really gonna do something silly someday. Perhaps this is too much stress to me. Or perhaps that’s because I listen to too much emo songs at night. Or maybe it’s due to this damn hot weather.

I just think I am damn useless. Like I can’t do a simple vectors sum. I can’t complete an AQ. People do not have enough time to finish an exam; I have too much time, because I have nothing to write. Getting 0 percentiles for a subject that I am not good at. And getting another 0% for a subject that I am pretty confident at. 到底是我辜负了世界，还是世界对不起我？Of course this seems nonsensical, 千错万错，当然是自己的错啦。他妈的路是自己选的，要埋怨谁？

For my friends, I love/need/admire/care for/concern about/miss you guys very very much. You guys have always been the one and only centre of my world. And you guys take up a much more important role and position in my life than anyone/anything else. Without you guys, my life is without color. No, it’s like fish without water. I am very apologetic if I had brought you guys any inconvenience (I am sure there is), hope you guys don’t put it at heart.  Most of the time I don’t really mean it, and if you guys have observed I am really lousy at rejecting people, so please don’t get offended ok?

Then for my dearest respectful teachers. A very big thank you. There is this Chinese saying, 一日为师终身为父. Teachers you all are just like my parents, always being helpful and caring (ok lah most teachers), it isn’t easy to withstand all those shit from me you know. Must have driven you mad many many times. 小孩子一时兴奋口无遮拦，歹势啦。Next time if got chance I let you scold lah.

Then my dear roommate. Even though I really cannot stand your ego-ness, I still must 佩服 your style of working. You are clever enough, just that very insensitive sometimes lah.  我不怪你啦，in fact I don’t think I 怪 anyone before lor，呵呵。你还是好好读书，以后回大马打拼，毕竟哪里是你真正的家乡，whether you like or not。我出身外地都这么爱国了，你生于斯长于斯，自然爱国程度应该比我高一截吧？Wish you good luck next year for YOUR A Levels. And don’t miss me ‘cos you will get a better roommate next year. Or least someone who doesn’t spam annoying Hokkien songs at night bah.

Finally my 老父老母. I doubt you will see this here, but if you really do, I would like to say that I haven’t been a very good son, as you can see. Too independent le lah, and too selfless for you all le. I just read today in my 《论语》 that Confucius said, "事父母几谏，见志不从，又敬不违，劳而不怨。”Sorry my 志 is really everywhere and I am not emotionally to home at all. Don’t blame yourselves because this is a path that I chose myself. Or rather this is my fate lah. Pa and Ma you can put your hopes on Brother. He is smart intelligent with a tint of insolence and indolence. He still small, can change one lah. Not like me no hope le. He still got a bright future ahead of him.

Okay the above can constitute as my will, if suddenly the fan drop and chop off my head or accidentally I left my hand in the microwave oven. Anyway it’s okay. What’s the point of keeping a hand that is useless because the useless doesn’t bring it to good use?!

Okay suddenly I feel the need to personalise my wills to certain people, ‘cos we get along better than other usual ones and you guys are always on my side when I got stuff going on. Shall save it till some other day. Unless really I so suey kena hit by lightning while walking from NJ to NJ Boarding School.

Congratulations to Norman Lee from 08S04 for attaining Mr Congenialty. Told you “there’s a will, there’s a way!”